You are all creators!  As you decide to claim this you will see how you are attuned to in your multidimensional existence.  There are so many pockets of awareness about who you are that you don't see in front of you.  You are in control of being the creator and to create your way of being.

You probably thought that being sensitive is a weakness. On the contrary, you are sensitive which is a human sense called intuition.  You pick up the sensitivity to your spirit, your guides and angels.  Intuition is a repressed feeling because it is often misunderstood and not trusted.  It is through acceptance of this awareness that will enable you to integrate human SELF and soul in your daily life.
 
Yet, in your awakening, the past is what you have learned that can cause the future. It is challenging to decipher unless you tap into who you are so there is clarity. There are those who wear blinders and pay attention to only what they want to see.  This is not about guilt or shame, nor is it about blame.  This is energy that is withheld initiating a bottleneck filled with untruth, not reality. As a creator your persistence allows you to find ways beyond fear. The fear of the unknown is a creation of thoughts. Many will not venture beyond this.
 
Your thoughts become the master of how you are being in present time. Imagine depending on how you look at this, it can be a present or a misfortune. Your mastery of thoughts, emotions, and how you practice, not react is a gift. Many of you have done so much work educating yourself with self-help books, seminars and workshops. The actual truth is you are the gift with all that exists within you.
 
Often when you don’t accept self, you will tend to push away people who do love you or care about you.  You sometimes will go into solitude, surrounding self with those who mistreat you exactly the way you feel about yourself.  Why is acceptance of self so difficult?
 
Continuous resistance is your internal dialog saying, “are you enough?” responding.  The dialog can multiply as the battles increase gratification internally and externally.  Internal gratification is what usually stops you or can hold you back.  It is much simpler to look for external gratification giving instant, but temporary result.  This is human nature. It is better to look outside of self because of the pain (memory) that you hold.
 
Many think that the memory is only within the mind through knowledge.  The body stores memories within the nervous system as well.  Truthfully, the first reaction is by memory recall through thoughts.  The body responds and will follow the emotions.  Aha! Reaction first through thoughts created from your perspective.
 
Truth be known, the first reaction is actually experienced physically. The thoughts are triggered retrieving the history stored related to how you felt. Your body begins to feel many reactions attached to a story that created a thought.  Collective thoughts that establishes a belief system based on untruth, fear and pain.

The thoughts conflict with the feelings producing confusion making it more complicated to understand.  Frustration takes place. How can you decipher one from the other? Fear is fear. If the thought arises for fear of falling, the body reacts by resisting through fear to not fall; however, unless you create a different picture some where along the way you do fall. It validates what you created.
 
In the same respect, if you react through feeling fear through the body you may not know what action to take. The body may just hold you in fear as you become frantic, and cannot move.  It immobilizes you. This is something that can be changed with practice because the thought has not yet connected to what you are feeling.
 
Once the thought connects with the feeling, a myriad of reactions can occur. This is when you can either become most explosive to other emotions and thoughts. This can complicate your reality.  There are many directions that you can take. You are the only one who can choose the outcome to not continue to obscure your truth.  You are love.  You deserve love.  You are the essence of love existing now.
 
Most of us created a way to protect ourselves.  It is called being perfect. Perfectionism creates a pit of many emotions and feelings that can only cause more pain. To be perfect causes one to look outside, an external reaction producing a result.  The results can be created or manipulated. Manipulation to suppress the feelings, repress the pain (memories) causing self-limitation and limiting your possibilities to heal. Manipulation will seem like you are creating something.

Here are a few examples.  Sometimes manipulation will look like being a bully.  It triggers pain and pain triggers you to respond from pain.  The pain can only manipulate you to be perfect as you seek to define perfection.  Between the ages of 0-8 years you experienced yelling and screaming within your household. You don't know why and you began to think you are at fault. As time progresses and the arguments continue you feel even more responsible as you try to make things better. Children find ways to get attention in hopes that the attention is on them, not the arguments. When the arguments do not stop, the feelings are held internally causing a flaw. The child feels accountable and no longer perfect.
 
Many times this manipulation can only be part of the confusion. No longer can an individual be the master.  The manipulation is the master, master of distorted truth. Here is another example. Harassment. What is it really? Harassment is to mistreat or intimidate. For example, if someone can manipulate another person through bullying, harassment or intimidation, it is a loss of Being. Then who is the creator?

I ask if this is creation or a way of being. Perfectionism is a way of being once established during the most important years as a child.  It may benefit at times to assist in ‘fitting’ in or being accepted.  Through the growing years, with time and experience it will continue to add to your way of being.  Unfortunately, a child will go through this full circle until their adult years where he/she will again find self, a way of being.

Creation opens many opportunities.  However when creativity is lost at such a young age, only a way of being in one's own reality is to be in the moment, not to create from the past or future.  Imagine in the case a child's environment of abuse, whether it is physical, mental, emotional, and often times complicated by alcohol and drugs.  Is this the creation any child asks for?  No.

The sadness in this situation is the complacency to assume a child can instantaneously make changes.  They may look through a fogged window and stand by it hoping to find the answer.  Most children are lost during these times.  I know I was never taught to notice or to handle my way of being or what I was creating.  Not until I went on my journey of self-discovery.  Unfortunately, a child will go through this full circle until their adult years where he/she will again find himself.

The pain and hurt became an imprint upon you as a child.  In your journey, you find that fear is what creates your reality.  You become this reality and this is how you know how to be.  You want to change it.  You don’t want to attract the same reality over and over.  You don’t want to attract the same relationships that repeatedly are not working.

All of you go on the journey to discover who you are and to find a better means of being.  You look for ways to find yourself so you can understand what has happened.  How could you even begin to think you created it?  How can you be the creator of a reality that you don’t want?  How is this possible that you are not where you want to be?

Creators operate only from being in motion within a flow. Not through perfection and not in righteousness, which is an illusion of having control.  To lead self is the other part of the equation as you begin to rebuild your own destiny in truth.  Unblock the bottleneck that holds you back and replays the past repeatedly.  This will only commence a flow towards the future once you realize the lifestyle you are living now.
 
When in the flow, all can be created from all resources, as you know as “Law of Attraction”.  Your search for the truth spiritually allows you to explore the depths of your soul.  Many who have ascended (to come up higher in search of truth) have gone through the awakening.  Awakened to how you may have re-lived your past behaviors or thoughts.  How your being stuck and not being able to move forward is causing you to lose your inner strength.  There are some who have lost their ability to create intuitive connection to all that exists.  Mainly it has been blocked and not flowing.
 
Why is it that various researchers discover that this block leads back to our childhood years?  Yet, many will go through forgetting these years because of the pain.  Ironically, it is human nature to recall the adult experiences as the cause.  Today’s economy is a trigger for everyone’s pain.  Imagine what it does bring up?  Everything affects what we hold on to.  The reality about knowing about which feelings come up the most can easily be ignored.  Why would anyone want to go through the memory?  Yet, it is held within the DNA.

What is the solution?  Find out what the difference is between emotions and feelings.  How is it being triggered?  Find out who or what circumstance are you reacting to.  What memory is it connected to?  Find what keeps you stuck.  When did this occur in your timeline?  Find the core of when it all began, not to blame.  Why is it repetitively occurring now?  Find why you are not willing to do something different.  Is it too painful that you don’t want to remember at all?

In my many years of research in human behavior, I have come to a conclusion that we each have similar reactions to memories of pain and hurt.  The only distinction found is the story and the responsibility you have when you react and how you respond.
 
When I first discovered that it was all about me, I went on a path of blaming and not understanding why I reacted.  It was everyone’s fault.  I wouldn't be in this situation if it weren’t for the people who did this to me.  I want to let you all know that the journey has been difficult but much more rewarding then you can ever imagine.  Allowing myself to feel and emotionally understand my reactions eased the pain.  The body doesn’t feel the discomfort and restrictions to live as a human. 

You will discover what usually appears is how you react through behavior, thoughts or logic that you are compulsive in not changing.  This is a way of being, no longer created from love.  Only the creation of fear can manifest the more you decide you are right about your pain.

No one has denied the pain you have endured or disrespected you for the hurt you may have had in your life.  You are the only one creating these reactive patterns.  A reaction coming from fear is based on guilt, condemnation, anger, anxiety and hate.  Fear can only obscure the truth about love.  The fear of unknown is scary especially when you are not clear about what you want.  It cannot change your situation because of your age or experience you are committed to.

A couple of recognized fears is the Fear of Success or Fear of Failing.  It is the unknown you fear.  Something you cannot control, manipulate or force the conformity that keeps you comfortable.  It isn’t about being a risk taker.  Taking a look at SELF is the medicine to healing.  The beliefs come from experiences connected to thoughts that create a feeling.  These are learned behaviors.  Becoming awakened to this is what will release the triggering process of reaction allowing you to respond.

Fall in love.  If you have been on a roller coaster, imagine the anticipation as you climb before you drop into the unknown.  The feeling of falling is freeing not restrictive.  When you are passionate about something, you fall in love.  When you fall in love with someone it is in to the unknown.  It is euphoric and exciting to the senses of you being alive.

Be assured that the complexity of love becomes more intricate.  It is a dichotomy of fear and love based on your belief not behavior.   Fear is not real or eternal.  It is created.  Capture the moment to allow a lifestyle of being in the now.  You can create what it is that you want as the flow becomes easy.  The future can begin to build.  Fear can give you strength to BE the human and the soul you were meant to be.  Love will heal the fear that may restrict you.  Love will allow the flow for the future to exist today.
 
You are the attraction within the universe.  Emanate your essence of truth,”Love!”  Be what was given to you at the time of creation.  Love is multi-dimensional.  Imagine being in ecstasy this is the moment of connection.  You are here now and everywhere and everything exists at that moment.  Stop the search!  Look within and discover the integrity of your soul.
 
It is about forgiveness that opens these doors.  Not the reflection of one another.  Reflection is a reminder of who you are as human.  Human has the ability to choose responsibly and respond to one’s flow to live life to its fullest.  Not hopelessness.  Connect to all that exists around you and you will find what you seek.  Be caring to you human self, as you find no separateness inter-dimensionally amongst multiple dimensions.  The chord of light you could not find before will manifest through your laughter and joy as you experience all emotions and feelings.
 
BE the light!  You are the CREATOR.  You are LOVE.  You are Dimensional Souls!

Live Fully, Heal Thoroughly,

Charmaine Lee