Sherry was born into a rural family, the best of the best in the farming world, as the homestead was the largest and most modern of its time. It was here that she formed the roots of a lovely connection with animals and all of Mother Nature and to this day, such a setting is where she can find a deep inner peace while connecting with Spirit. After years of devoting her life to her job, all hell broke loose internally in 1998 and thus started the inner work of clearing out all the rubbish of old, outdated religious beliefs, lack of worthiness and self esteem issues, and deeply held wounds that simply would no longer be silenced. Sherry has spent the last 11 years breaking through barriers within through study, and various healing modalities. She is a Reiki master, she is certified in Reconnective Healing and Spirit Communication, and has attended the Barbara Brennon School of Healing Science, Lionheart Institute, to name a few! Sherry has been a ferocious closet writer for most of that time and is now ready to be heard. If all goes well, you will see her book appearing on the shelves in the near future! Her intent is to assist others in self acceptance and letting go of outdated beliefs of ancestral origin by sharing her story, her insights and helping all affirm that it is okay to be who you really are. Hopefully, there will be a little humor thrown in for good measure!Sherry can be reached at sherangel@hotmail.com
Today I have experienced some kind of shift, helped along by yet another terrific healing modality, one that seems to have just found me, at a time when I was wandering around, lost, hurt, filled with conflict inside, with not one dang clue as to what the hell to do with myself now. I am painfully aware that I am still struggling with this nasty pest, unhappiness, wondering if I was ever going to be able to exist in the resonance of it's polar opposite or if I was forever doomed to a lifetime of total discontent. The later scenario is just not an option for me. I didn’t make the choice to come here, to earth, to live in total misery, this I can tell you. This latest therapy is called Lifeline and it deals with connecting with unresolved issue’s held in the tissue’s that are affecting one’s ability in current time to live freely and peacefully.
Well, I spent the 3 days following this session in some sort of deep emotional cleanse, at least that is what I can call it now! At the time, I felt like I wanted to just die, without a doubt, yet knowing I would never help that along in any way, shape or form. What I did know was that I wanted the deep emotional pain to leave me….NOW.
But I road the wave until the 4th day, when something shifted and all of sudden, my almost desperate need to relocate to another state far, far away, just wasn’t so important anymore. I found myself appreciating exactly what I have right here. Astonishingly, I found myself applying for a job that actually sounded interesting and exciting to me, a practice I had been avoiding, fearful I was going to lose all freedom to leave.
So I just gotta wonder……was all of that panic about my need to prove someone wrong, someone who when I was just a young woman, told me in no uncertain terms, that it would be next to impossible to make it on my own? Did I carry around a need to prove her wrong and in doing so, create an even larger gap in who I was and the kind of life I really wanted for myself? I was so wrapped up in an ’I’ll show you’ state of being that all else of any real importance to me went completely ignored, a practice that only fueled the rage of an inner fire I just seemed unwilling to put out and let go.
Now, having healed the damage of that one statement from 37 years ago, I also had to accept the emotions that a death creates as I let that vindictive side of me go in order to forgive and live a life from here on that was not affected by someone else’s poor parenting skills. My forgiveness only became possible when I acknowledged that I did indeed choose these people to be in my life for very specific lessons and growth potential but I also had to accept that I chose to learn these lessons and take full responsibility for my part in it. As I see it now, the game is over. No more dwelling in the land of discontent.
Now, much to my amazement, all of sudden, making such a drastic move out of state no longer seems necessary. Maybe I will still move to California, or some other location that seems to call to me or maybe a won’t. As I allow myself to sit in this new found acceptance, I expect those answers will now come without me running after them.